My Tantric Healing Journey: How I Healed and Awakened

This article was originally written during an important period of my life. I’ve chosen to share it again here, with deep reverence for the path that brought me to where I am now. May it meet you where you are and invite you into what’s possible.

What is a Tantric Healing Journey?

This tantric healing journey began in the shadowlands of childhood pain and led me back to my body, my truth, and my purpose.

The Roots of My Tantric Healing Journey

🌒 A Childhood of Sensitivity and Silence

I grew up in an environment where love was scarce.

During my early school years, we moved away from my beloved Cape Town up to Pietersburg—now known as Polokwane—during the apartheid era. The two distinct energetic tones that linger in my memory from that time are small-mindedness and nastiness.

I was born sensitive—empathic and open to perceiving my environment. On the healthy end of the spectrum, this is what makes for a good healer, provided there are boundaries and an honesty with one’s emotional landscape.

Think of it like a radio receiving electromagnetic waves—tuning into subtle fields and translating them into sound. But when that radio is damaged by trauma, conditioning, or ancestral residue, what emerges is garbled, painful, and difficult to make sense of.

🌊 Abandonment and Awakening

Living in that kind of environment was suffocating. I hadn’t yet learnt to separate myself from what I was feeling. My mind—noisy and agonising—trapped me in what felt like a cesspit. I was sent to boarding school very young, far away from home.

It was then that abandonment planted its first seeds, warping the lens through which I saw the world—and myself.

I became shut down. I stopped feeling. In my attempt to cope, I numbed. And in time, I too became cold. The abused became the abuser. I hurt others, as I had been hurt. And life, in its ruthless mercy, showed me this with painful clarity.

🌹 The Death of Numbness

That shutdown strategy served me as a child, but as an adult, it cut me off from empathy, joy, and true intimacy.

I had no choice but to find a way out. I was wild. Feral. Carrying so much pain that I could barely function in the world. There was no one to hold me, no one to understand. So I learnt to hold myself. And that was the beginning.

The abandonment I experienced became my initiation. It forced me to separate from the false identities I had inherited and to forge a new path—one rooted in truth.

🕊 The Seduction of Denial

We humans are wired to belong. It’s our deepest instinct. But often we settle for environments that are toxic simply because they’re familiar. The thought of stepping out of that system—of individuating—feels terrifying.

So we stay. We deny. We numb.

But when we shut down pain, we also shut down pleasure. That’s when inertia creeps in, like a quiet fog.

How the Tantric Path Heals the Heart

💗 The Heart’s Relentless Work

It takes tremendous courage to heal the heart. But oh, how worth it it is.

Through many philosophies and healing paths, I eventually found Tantra. It became my soul’s compass. And in my early years, I was blessed to manifest a teacher who saw my potential and guided me through the darkness.

🌺 The Sacred Wounds of Masculine and Feminine

Most of us were raised in cultures that shamed men’s vulnerability and taught women to dim their power.

Men were told: “Don’t feel.” Women were told: “Be good. Be quiet. Be chosen.”

The Tantric path unravels these lies. It asks us to turn toward discomfort—to feel, to move, to release—because that is how we come alive again.

The Call to Begin Your Own Tantric Healing Journey

🔥 The Call to Awaken

You don’t need to come from trauma to feel this calling. Perhaps you're simply yearning for more. Or perhaps your soul is screaming for release.

Either way, you need a guide—someone who has walked the fire and returned with the medicine. Someone who understands what it means to take the red pill... and just how deep the rabbit hole goes.

Your Body Holds the Key to Healing

🧘‍♀️ The Body as Oracle and Storehouse

Your body holds it all—every unmet emotion, every ancestral whisper, every unfinished story.

Tantra brings you back into intimacy with yourself. It strengthens your capacity to receive—especially the uncomfortable—and that’s when the real healing begins.

This tantric healing journey involves awakening the kundalini energy at the base of your spine, often through the vehicle of sexual energy. Once this energy is activated and cultivated, it can lead to profound spiritual liberation.

What You’ll Experience in a Tantric Healing Journey

⚡ Two Paths to Awakening

There are two approaches to kundalini awakening:

🌀 The Active Path:

Through practices like:

• Visualization

• Concentration

• Pranayama (breathwork)

• Kriya & Kundalini yoga

• Meditation

These stir and direct the energy consciously.

🌊 The Passive Path:

This is the path of surrender. Of feeling what has long been buried. Of letting go.

It includes the transmission known as 'Shaktipat'—when one’s Kundalini is activated by another who has already walked the path.

In my work, I weave both approaches—honoring structure and surrender equally.

Your Invitation to Begin

The tantric healing journey begins the moment we choose to feel again—fully, fiercely, and without apology.

🧿 The Initiation I Offer

I offer this path as your guide—a five-session tantric healing journey where we meet once to twice a week for three hours. You'll receive practices and meditations to anchor into daily between our sessions.

This is an initiation. A reclamation. An investment beyond money.

So I only work with those who feel it—deep in their bones—and are willing to walk the path with devotion.